Worth It

[flwrpwr_vampyre]

Pairing/Characters: Sylar/Luke
Rating: R - masturbation
Warnings: Angst
Disclaimer: I obviously don’t own Heroes.
Summary: Luke slid down to the floor in the shower, huddling in on himself.
Notes: Many thanks to flying_monkees and thepansythug for beta'ing this for me. Written for a prompt on the YAHAKM and since it turned out darker then they wanted it's getting posted normally. Also written for the mission_insane prompt Thinking Of You



Luke slid down to the floor in the shower, huddling in on himself under a spray so hot it was almost scalding. This was pathetic. He was pathetic. He honestly couldn't see how his life had improved. He knew how to put on an uncaring face, to act as if all he cared about was fulfilling some stupid childhood fantasy but he didn't think he was fooling anyone.

He wondered when Sylar was going to kill him. How badly it would hurt. He slid a hand down, wrapping it around himself slowly, biting his lip as he hardened. He didn't think Sylar would use it much; it wasn't a very useful power unless you really wanted to kill someone painfully.

He sped up, choking back a sound that was half a moan, half a sob. The water was quickly losing its temperature as his skin prickled into goosebumps and he just couldn't stop. He wanted to, he knew he should. Instead he pictured Sylar boiling someone alive with his power and his hand tightened, his hips jerking up into his closed fist.

It would be worth it, being killed, just to have something about himself that someone wanted. That someone like Sylar would want and he came, gasping, biting down on his other hand. The water quickly washed his hand clean and he tucked his legs up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them as cold water rained down on him.

He was so fucked.

Comments

[terraswrath.livejournal.com]

Awww, don't be feeling dumb! I'm studying both English Language and Literature in Higher Education so I tend to pick up on the literary techniques that writers don't realise they've done, and am compelled to let said writer know :) Plus I know how much more satisfying an in-depth comment is compared to a line or two.

You definitely subconsciously thought of it - the evidence is in the fic! Plus, when I was writing it all out like that I got to re-read it a few times, which is always pleasure when you find a relatively short fic that conveys the same power you'd usually find in a longer one.

[flwrpwr-vampyre.livejournal.com]

You really know how to compliment a girl. *wink*

I'm speechless with pleasure right now and just want to thank you again. In depth comments are definitely fun to get and really help me see what I'm doing right in my fics and with my writing.

[terraswrath.livejournal.com]

I'm glad I brightened up your day :) And I hope to see more writing from you in the future!

[flwrpwr-vampyre.livejournal.com]

*pimps self out* I have quite a stockpile of fics for browsing pleasure. And all have the appropriate warnings on them so you're not going to be shocked by non-con if it's not your thing.

[terraswrath.livejournal.com]

Hahahaha, oh believe me, non-con is definitely my thing. I can only think of one or two things that aren't my thing, but they're so obscure that I doubt you'll have written them. I shall go to your page immediately and have a read!

(By the way, I jumped onto your user profile and I couldn't help but notice that you have IM. Would I be able to add you?)

[flwrpwr-vampyre.livejournal.com]

I'm curious anyways, what won't you read?

Sure, go ahead, I use AIM the most but I have the others too.